well, that girl I was talking about, asked me out today, and I said yeah. So we're going to see a movie tomorrow. Then I think I'm going to tell her that I won't be able to dedicate a lot of time to her because honestly, I won't. I rarely have a lot of free time anymore, I work all the time and I go to kung fu almost every weeknight. These are things that I don't want to give up, I can't give up either of them... Work is how I make money and kung fu has already proven to be far more valuable to me than what I pay for it... and it's kind of changed the way I am and look at things, kind of made me more courageous and outgoing. It's kind of a combination between knowing that I can overcome obstacles if I try hard enough, and the self confidence from being somewhat in shape again. If I start letting up on kung fu and stop going as much, it just makes it easier to continue not going. Like when I broke my hand, I actually didn't go to kung fu for about a month and a half. I used the broken hand as an excuse, but I still could have gone... I don't want to do that again.
I just got this email from ebay:
"The following listing:
8191777484 - Mega Man Zero 3 GBA Gameboy Advance SP
was removed because the intellectual property rights owner notified eBay that the listing potentially infringes its copyright, trademark or other rights. Due to this claim, and the fact that the feedback system is no longer available, we strongly urge you not to complete this transaction."
I already won this auction, a long time ago, and got the game in the mail already. I wish I could look at the auction again to see exactly how it infringed copyrights, but I got the game, and it works fine, so whatever. I think I got it from hong kong so it could have possibly been a pirate copy. Oh well, cheap game for me!
I pulled a muscle in my arm in kung fu tonight, it really sucks. It basically just hurts whenever I extend my arm, which kind of happens a lot. I guess I learned my lesson about hyperextending when I block I guess.
I got my tax return check in the mail, 500 bucks is cool. I would thank the government if they didn't take it from me in the first place.
There's this girl at work that likes me and I think she is pretty cool, but I feel bad because I kind of just... don't really think i'm ready to be in a relationship. I feel like I need to persue things in my life that are important to do before I get into a relationship. They are time consuming and they take time away from other things that you could be doing... Am I crazy? Lots of guys like to gauge their personal worth on whether or not they have a girlfriend, but right now I kind of don't care at all. That is another reason why I don't think I'm ready for a relationship, I don't think I could dedicate time to it and I don't think I could care enough about it to make it work. It sounds terrible but it is true.
Now I am going to go to sleep and hope my arm doesn't hurt as much when I wake up.
I know I said I wouldn't bitch about work, but I can't help it. I kind of feel like I've been shit on, like everything I've tried to do, was merely taken for granted. I feel like I got screwed over for working too hard, and now any desire for promotion or advancement there is gone. I was going to quit today, but I decided to secure a new job before doing so, so I don't end up screwing myself. I can't work at a place that would have that little prick as a manager anyway. I shouldn't be too mad, because I was going to leave eventually anyway, but... I've lost all respect for that place now. Not just the place, but everybody above me working there as well (except you, JP). Sometimes I think that if I had just been a lazy asshole, and stood around up in box office all through my shifts instead of actually working, I could be getting trained for manager right now. But now, regardless of what happens, I'm absolutely positive that my time would be better spent elsewhere.
I watched batman at work and it was totally awesome, best batman movie to date. Despite what some people might think, the batmobile was awesome and cooler than any of the old batmobiles. I didn't read the comics or watch the cartoons or whatever so I don't have that to base my opinions off of, but the movie is awesome even if you haven't ever heard of Scarecrow or Ra's Al Ghul before. Apparently they were in the cartoon or comics or something but the movie is the first time I've heard of either of them. Batman is a ninja and that's awesome.
That last post about my mom, it's really not as bad as it seems. Most of the time, she is fine. She just has an extremely volatile temper; some days she is easy to get along with, and some days it just seems like she looks for shit to get angry about. She isn't like that all the time, but people tend to remember and acknowledge the bad things over the good most of the time. The past couple days there haven't really been any problems and it's been rather calm around the house. It's not like she was abusive and put cigarettes out on my forehead when I was a kid or anything. She just has a nature of overreacting.
I removed this entry because my mom is digging through my site like it's her business and she doesn't agree with what I said about her. How ironic considering the post was regarding almost the exact same topic.
i'd say i'm ready for akon, I got my... umm... gameboy... i guess i should start getting ready. I am going to bring a cooler with some food in it and a lot of drinkage like last time. two cases of dr. thunder will not do, I will have to get maybe four cases. I think I might be a lot less picky with what I spend money on, but maybe not... we'll just have to see. Something has to be worth some money for me to spend it, I'm definitly not going to waste money on cheap ass swords anymore, those katanas I bought last year are falling apart already... I guess that's what happens when you use glue to make swords. psh