i slept all day today... nyquil does that sometimes. i haven't been feeling too well the past couple days, i really hate being sick. I dont' really get sick that often, i like to think that I have an awesome immune system but the truth is i probably am not social enough to catch all of the nasty colds lurking about out there. it's hard to catch communicable diseases when you are at home all day every day. well i guess that's not entirely true, i work and go to kung fu, but that's about it.
anyway, i've just been really depressed lately. i need to do something... i just feel like an inconvenience to everybody around me. it makes me feel restless. i've been trying to take my mind off of it by playing video games (world of warcraft, vampire bloodlines) for the past month, and it's worked somewhat... but lately I just feel like i'm wasting time, whenever I play I feel like it's pointless... to tell the truth, it pretty much is pointless, but usually it's fun. but in the past week, i haven't been having any fun. i've been trying to write music and everything that i create sounds like shit to me. i need to find out some way to be happy again.
Posted by at December 15, 2004 04:00 AMI know what'll make you feel better....Christmas break LAN! It'll be merriment and good times.
Posted by: HardwareGuy at December 15, 2004 11:13 AMWe need to take you driving Joe, that'll be christmas LAN fun right there. Helping Joe get his drivers license, oh yeah!!!!
I'll see ya when I get back from Canada in a week.
Posted by: JP at December 15, 2004 02:24 PMYup... Erik & JP both are right! Sounds like you need some inspiration & gaining the ability to drive will make you feel better. I didn't get my license until I was almost 21. Now I can drive (I may not be the greatest driver...). We could teach you how to drive at lan & then toast to a success afterwards! :)
Posted by: a browneyed girl at December 15, 2004 02:51 PMYes, you should take some time off work, a personal vacation, and just chill at the lan house for a few weeks without any obligations, i would be nice to spend time with some friends. Everyone else gets vacations at work, why not you? You should seriously just take off a week or something, and come visit us, we havent seen you set up at a lan since last springbreak.
Posted by: Nick at December 15, 2004 05:36 PMDon't forget alcohol, that'll make christmas lan even more fun.
Posted by: HardwareGuy at December 16, 2004 12:29 PMoh yes, and 1 more day till i can do it without guilt, actually, i never felt to guilty.
Posted by: Nick at December 16, 2004 03:22 PMI get in that rut sometimes...
Takes a lil while sometimes, but you'll find a way to be happy again. I guarantee it. Just remember that many things, you dont have an obligation. Dont let people take advantage of you. You are joe. You should do whatever joe feels like doing.
joe is the man!
Posted by: Nick at December 18, 2004 04:43 PM