I haven't done much in the past couple years of my life. I'd hate to say that I've wasted two years of my life, but there's not really much else that I could say I've done. I've been pretty much unemployed since I graduated high school... I quit my busser job at unos a couple months after graduation. I worked at admiral a few months last summer, a few months this summer, but that really doesn't count as a job. I got a job at starworld a couple weeks ago and that's going pretty well... I'd say the starworld job is probably the biggest thing I've done with my life in the past two years. That's pretty sad.
Then there's the whole band thing, which was actually doing pretty well for a while, until a certain chain of events caused shit to hit fans. Everybody who is reading this site probably knows the story, but it was just one thing after another. I ended up quitting my active band and I'm currently in a band that isn't doing anything. I keep writing music, but I've recently felt like it's pointless. I really want the band to take off, start playing gigs, but shit just keeps happening. The other guitarist lives out of town. The drummer is still in high school. The bassist is going to be a father in a week, or less. And I and stuck here at my house without a drivers license... I know that the last one's my fault, but even then, it's not looking well. We don't even have a singer or any lyrics to our songs. It hurts so bad to say this stuff, because I honestly think that we have so much potential; our sound is so unique compared to the other local metal bands out there and if we could just get going, I think people would like us.
I feel like I haven't done anything worthwhile for the past two years. Going to Norman has really inspired me though, now I realize what I could be doing with my life, and probably what I should be doing with my life. I kind of feel like I have some ambition now... I don't feel content just drifting through life anymore, I really feel like I need to do something.
So yeah, that's what I've been thinking about for the past few days. What I'm going to do. It's never too late to turn it around.
Posted by at September 17, 2003 02:10 AMAww, Joe, I'd sing for/with your band, but you know I'm not into metal, and I can't do the screaming/yelling stuff.
Posted by: Tina at September 17, 2003 09:43 AMHey joe, yeah, norman, it should be your future. Next time im in town, maybe you and me can go practice driving.
Posted by: Nick at September 17, 2003 11:36 AMdood! i also could tech you driving, we'd just have to use your car because mine is a standard. as for the whole doing nothing with your life thing, I have to say I've felt that way for awhile and so has ashley. I actually think its a normal sort of thing. my point is that even with a job or school other people feel the same. I think its got something to do with transitioning from your defined "self" in high school to redinifing "yourself" for adulthood. yeah thats what i think.
Posted by: josh at September 17, 2003 02:30 PMI think it's true that lots of people have, and do, think that they do/have done nothing with their lives, but not everyone, someone have found things to do with their lives.
To me, I think it has more to do with finding yourself, the problem with most people is, they don't know who they are, and because of that void in knowledge of themselves, there's a void in what they are doing, because how can you be satisfied with your life, if you don't know what statisfies you?
Another aspect in the bigger picture for me has to do with God. See, the question of 'why are we here?' to me is answered by one word 'relationships'. I think we are here to interact with eachother, to build relationships with one another, whatever form of relationship that may be. And one relationship that is key is the one with God, one which lacks in most peoples lives, especially mine.
But that's just what I've thought while thinking, and I will continue to think.
Posted by: JP at September 17, 2003 03:09 PMJosh, joe needs to learn to drive a standard. Thats what the blue truck is. although learning to drive normal is good too.
Posted by: Nick at September 17, 2003 07:13 PMYeah Joe, I wouldn't be too worried that you haven't done much with your life. Everyone gets scared about the future, and a few times a month I wonder what I'll be doing in 5 years and I can't say for sure what. The good thing is we all have friends to talk with about heavy stuff like that and we can all make eachother feel better.
Posted by: Erik at September 18, 2003 12:20 AMMan, you're YOUNG. Does it really matter that you haven't done the standard ideal of what you should have done for the past two years? Its only two years, and have you had fun with those two years? A lot of people never really get the chance to take time off, and you have a LOT of stories to tell about that time.
Start with the driving, regardless of what happens after that, its a very useful thing to be able to do. And as I've said for the past four years, I'm still willing to teach you, if you'd ever like me to.
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