thejj

My lack of employment is about to drive me completely batty. I spent most of the late evening at Fun House and I didn’t really have that much fun, ironic eh? Nothing to do with people ? just me. I was in the type of mood that certain kinds of behavior bother me quite a bit. For example when people are rude and walk in front of you or block your view of something, stuff like that. I did not have any outbursts or such just being annoyed. My mother is getting antsy again and making demands of me again and part of me just wishes that she would just go away. I am tired of being uncertain of the future, I don’t want my life to go backwards, and I am tired of my mom screwing with crap and living in fear that she can show up at my house to cause a scene just because I do not bend to her will. I am 21 years old I should not be forced to do anything for her even though she is my mother. Since I do not really have anyone to share all my thoughts with perhaps I should begin sticking them in here, perhaps that will make me feel better.

Time for sleep, I only got 5 hours last night, hopefully I will not get a rude awakening by my mother tomorrow.